December 5, 2012 § 9 Comments
Why am I doing this practice?
Why does dropping back scare the shit out of me?
Why can’t I drop back on my own without hitting my head on the floor – two days in a row?
What is the point of all this intense backbending?
Why do I feel so inadequate?
Am I here at the right time in my practice?
Should I have waited a few more years before practicing here, to get those floaty jumpbacks/jumpthroughs nailed down?
Maybe I am never going to manage floaty jumpbacks/jumpthroughs – does this make me less of an Ashtangi?
Why am I envious of others’ ease and flexibility, but blind to my own successes?
Am I strong enough to do this?
Why do I push myself?
Why do I feel so raw and broken?
What am I doing here?