October 17, 2012 § 9 Comments
After Maria’s comment on my last post, it occurred to me that I’ve never actually done more than hint about my upcoming trip to Mysore.
I leave in three weeks – the day after the US Presidential Elections, so I have the added benefit of having the entire nation counting down on my behalf. Tickets are booked. The Indian visa is safe in my passport. I’ve got my vaccines, accommodation, a spot at the shala, ride to/from the airport all settled. The only thing I have left to do is pack and get on the plane. Yet, every aspect of this trip still feels hypothetical. In a “yea, I’m going to India (in a long long time from now)” kinda way. To the non-Ashtangis in my social circle, I’m surprisingly nonchalant for a trip of this “magnitude” – i.e., single woman travelling to the Indian subcontinent on her own for her first trip. Some responses I’ve received are:
“You’re going there voluntarily?”
“For six weeks?!?!?!”
“What’s going to happen to your husband?”
All this has been more than entertaining, because while I’m going there on my own, not knowing a single soul to meet or hang out with, I feel like anything but a solitary traveller. And that’s the beauty of this international Ashtanga community. I have shalamates who’ve just returned and have been prepping me with tips. My yoga teacher sat down with me to share stories and prime my expectations for what practice will be like in Sharath’s room. Another teacher’s connecting me with the folks she knows who are already in Mysore. A shalamate’s sister lives in Mysore and I’m getting connected to her as well. Above all, huge thanks to Kevin for the hat tip on a lovely room for my stay.
With all this support flowing in, how can I feel anxious??
Of course, anxiety and excitement are the same chemical responses in the body, so it’s all a matter of perspective.
I am excited to go. I am excited about practicing in that room. That’s what this is all about really – practicing in that room. Everything else is secondary*.
Three Wednesdays from now I will be on my way there. Unbelievable.
*Although one of my wishlist items is to go to the movies while I’m there. I’ve heard that it’s one big party!