April 12, 2011 § 12 Comments
Has been on my mind a lot lately. Thoughts like:
- What would it be like to practice, at 4am, at AYRI?
- Can I deal with leaving my husband for a month (or more?) to do this?
- Will I go crazy with the assault on my senses, at all levels?
- Do I have to be a vegetarian the whole time I am there? Will it matter?
Am I just stressed right now?
When about half (or more?) of the Ashtangi bloggers I read regularly went to Mysore earlier this year, I found myself intrigued by the prospect, eagerly following their updates, insights, struggles and joys. India is a fascinating world to me, one I’m quite content to appreciate from the comfort of my wooden desk and computer screen. As someone who appreciates her modern comforts, the stories and pictures I’ve seen of the continent remind me that it might be a place better savored through words and images, rather than experienced for oneself.
The strange thing though, is that this interest in India – Mysore specifically – has not gone away since the 2010-2011 winter season. I find myself wondering about it, what it would be like to practice with someone as experienced as Sharath or Saraswati. A curiosity about chanting has started to take hold as well, and now that plans to practice with Sharath in Encinitas have fallen through, the prospect of travelling to Mysore is more appealing than ever.
Quite frankly, I’m surprised by this inclination. Up until February 2011, I viewed the ‘Mysore pilgrimage’ as something that would be nice to experience, but not absolutely necessary to the practice. I’m still trying to figure out the change in perspective. It could be stress – life has been good but crazy busy the past month – which would turn India into an escapist dream, or the state of my relationship with the current teacher. I don’t know. Time will tell.